sighs... i dont know why my relationship is so fucked up. sighs. is either i dont understand her or she dont understand me well enuff. sighs. always when i try to talk to her shes like give me a face as if like i owe her a living or what. im also human being. why i dont have heart? im cold blooded? wtf am i to her man. sighs. yeah. at first says that i treat her cold. yeah i admit that i last time treat her cold. but aftr that i nvr treat her cold. now is that shes treating me cold. well.. got prob den find me . if no prob den? sighs. i really dont know whats shes thinking. seriously. i just feel that mayb our feelings have fade? but we just trying to deceive ourself and says that no no no we are loving each other ba? am i right to say that? seriously i dont know how? now is like if i nvr msg her for 1week she also nvr try to msg me or what. mayb i think if i 1 whole month nvr even msg / call her i think she also wont try to msg me or call me ba. sighs. we aren't like that in the past. i just hope that we can go back to the past. and i dont know why she knows some of my friends. seriously is just like suddenly she knows them. i just feel weird. and some times i called her she nvr pick up and always tell me the same reason sry. im working so nvr reply your msg or pick up your call. sighs. i sometimes really is very sick about it. idk what to do. yeah. i do think of break. but cause of some reason cant. sighs. im really in a black whole. and see no sun light. sometimes i thought of what if 1 day i do really die. and nvr exist in this world. how???? sighs

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